Being rebellious to not be rebellious

Alter Egos.

I was actually greatly inspired by Michelle Phan's makeup video on her alter ego. And just a few days back, I was suddenly overcame with this great need to dye my hair in all sorts of colours (namely pastel blue, pink and purple). I guess it was initially just the desire to do something cool, and come on, colourful hair is nice;)

And then it grew into a need, because I felt that my life was just too.....normal? Hm I'm not sure if that's the right word to explain it. How about....common? Or perhaps you can say I've been doing what a first-world society expects of a child nowadays. That is to get good grades, get a good degree, get a good career. No, I have only reached the "get good grades" stage, but all the conformity is driving me crazy. And thus my sudden need to dye my hair crazily. Even though I know how bad bleach is....sighs....

Maybe that's why I suddenly came to this idea that in order to not become rebellious, we should occasionally be rebellious. Ok, before anyone gets confused, I mean to do things out of the norm once in a while so that you don't get driven to the extreme and end up taking a path of no return. And that's something I realised I have always been doing.

When I was still a kid, like literally a kid, below 10 years old, I actually stole before. Thank god I just stole from my mom's shop though, nothing serious. It was more of me being upset with her refusing to buy me whiteboard markers. And since she happened to sell whiteboard markers in her shop, I just took it and pretended like it appeared at home all of a sudden. Yeah, I know, awesome stealing skills. Obviously I got into SO MUCH trouble for that. It was lectures one after another, from the father down to my relatives, adding in some caning as seasoning.

And then when I went into my teenage years, I decided that the stress of having to do well academically and on my portfolio was too much to take. But instead of going into drugs or bad influences, I punched the wall! And broke my hand........and ended up in a cast for a month...... I wouldn't recommend this method of rebellion to anyone by the way, it hurt physically, it hurt my pocket (ER fees aren't cheap) and it hurt my portfolio (I couldn't take part in SYF cos I couldn't play my violin)

Now, finally, being liberated of A levels, I needed one more act of defiance. Uh...okay....maybe dyeing my hair is not exactly defying anything, I mean, my parents are perfectly fine with that. But I guess what I wanted to do was just something different. Something bold. I think I might just dress up like a goth one day after dyeing my hair:D (I genuinely think that goths are real cool k, no negative connotation in my words)

And so to end this post off, for those who can't seem to stand life and feel like deviating from the socially approved path, maybe you can try small acts of rebellion to try to appease your restricted heart and soul. If it isn't enough, then deviate a little! Just don't go so far in that you can't come back out. Drugs and illegal acts aren't the only ways to rebel against your parents. Be a little unique, challenge rules and regulations, challenge the way things are done. It could be little things like arguing with your chairperson. Or you could be the next historical figure by coming up with a new concept or idea.